PovertyLottery

I've been kind of AWOL and grew 2,000 messages which is just a bit too many for me to be able to cope with. Also I moved to college. This summer has been uspeakably stressful. I'll get back to being a productive member of society as soon as I stop hyperventilating. And maybe make some friends. (WHY IS THIS SO HARD)

So I was just trying to draw and I couldn't remember how and it was really scary and everything looked bad and I need to start drawing all the time because that was a terrible of nightmarish proportions and I cannot let that happen again because I WILL CRY. And maybe things have just been overwhelming for a while now, but criminy, I can't believe I forgot how to DRAW. I gotta start sketching all the time instead of wasting my life all the time.

But then I got tired, so now I don't even know what I'm doing. I'm too tired to do anything, but I'm fighting to keep myself upright because I need to do stuff, but I'm too tired to do anything, and-- Should I even bother trying to stay awake if the only thing I'm capable of doing is trying to stay awake? Ugh, I don't know if this lethargy is medicine-induced or what, but I only seem to have about two hours worth of energy a day.